Was it all a dream?

It certainly feels that way at times.  Living in Nicaragua has taken on this dream-like quality in my head.  It already feels so long ago and separate from my life here.  Two completely different lives.  Overall, though, I feel like I have re acclimated into “large family life.”  Living with six other people can be a challenge but I’ve adjusted for the most part!

I’ve been thinking a lot about going back to school in the fall, specifically University of Massachusetts.  I’m getting excited about it!  And tonight, I booked my ticket to Europe, so that’s one step closer!

All for now.

 

Aaand, I’m back home!

It’s 12:30 am, and I should be fast asleep, seeing as I have just returned from a full day of traveling.  But there are so many thoughts and feelings running through my head, keeping me from sleep.

It is SO strange to be back.  A few minutes ago, I was lying in my bed, struck all of a sudden by how QUIET everything is here. In Leon at night there is CONSTANT noise — trucks honking, music blaring, people shouting, fireworks exploding, etc, and it continues all night long.  It is never this quiet, in part because the house I was living in was totally open to the elements (no roof.)  Sound-proofing is not a concept there.

Earlier, as  we pulled into my driveway, I found myself thinking how unbelievable it is that I can wake up in one country, and end my day in an entirely one.  Air travel is incredible that way!  When I traveled by bus to Guatemala, I at least got a sense of the changes in landscape as we crossed through Honduras and El Salvador.   In a way, I think that it is easier for our brains to travel by bus than by plane because we can visualize / experience the distance in a concrete way.

Nicaragua and Leon feel millions of miles away from here.  It’s just so DIFFERENT in Leon.  Wilder, almost.  More chaotic.  LOUD.  And of course, BLAZING HOT.  For the first time in a long while, I am wearing long pants, a sweatshirt, and socks!  WHAT IS THIS?

Reverse culture shock is for real!

But even if it is a disconcerting feeling, as I watch my dog Josie sleep,  everything feels just as it should.

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The Departure

I’m leaving Nicaragua in three short days.  Am I ready to leave?  This is an impossibly hard question to answer, in part because the reasons I am ready to leave have little to do with Nicaragua itself.  There’s plenty I’m NOT ready to leave behind — the sense of community, the ability to walk everywhere, the less stressful pace of life, the friendliness I encounter in so many, drinking 5 cent natural juice out of a plastic bag, eating fritanga behind the cathedral, treating myself to the most delicious coffee in Cafe Libelula, staring out at the ocean, being crammed tighter than sardines in a chicken bus… I will miss all and more of this.  That being said, I am ready to leave in the sense that I need more focus in my life — at times I’ve felt like I’ve been “floating aimlessly” these past few months, and too much aimless floating can drive you crazy!  I have also been working a little bit, but not enough to offer me a steady daily structure, which is something I have come to appreciate. For all I know, though, I will still be floating aimlessly on my next adventure.  As it stands now, the plan is to au pair in Spain for three months, starting in February.  First, I’m heading back to the US to spend time with my family, and then, in mid-January, will visit extended family in England, and eventually fly to Spain from there.  All plans, though, have the possibility of falling through, so who knows if it will pan out?  What I DO know for certain is that I am leaving Leon, Nicaragua in three days time, and there is SO much I will miss about this place!